First Post

Okay, so I had a bit of trouble figuring out just how to post here as my Pre doesn't let me scroll in text boxes, I ended up enabling email posting to make longer entries.

Okay, well, enough about my problems....let me talk about my problems now.

Char pretty much nailed it, I'm urinary incontinent, homeless, and suspect to have a dissociative disorder--likely Dissociative Identity Disorder--DID, or multiple personality disorder for those not up on the new lingo.

My dissociative disorder is as of right now undiagnosed.  However I can't imagine it's anything else--such as schizophrenia--there is dissociation and not just voices.  For two weeks  in June I have little memory.  Soon after, I was introduced to a new alter.

Char introduced who my alters were, but not their names.  All my known alters have names.

Mischa is the three year old: he's hyper sometimes, but very calm and sedate other times.  He is why I always carry a pacifier with me.

Hailey is the six year old, she is shy and to my knowledge ashamed of our incontinence.  She may be a multiple herself, as it has been said that she acts differently from time to time

Mischa and Hailey are unable to read or type so we have devised a system where I am still able to type what they say if they ever talk to Charlotte over instant messenger, yet I usually have little recollection of their time front.

Paul is the ten year old, he's rather antisocial and picks on Hailey and Mischa because they're smaller.
Hunter is in his mid-30s, an ex-SAS veteran of the NATO actions in Kosovo, where he was wounded in the line of duty.  He has also spoken of Afghanistan and Iraq.

I became homeless after my mother ratcheted up her abuse when I lost my job last Wednesday.  She assaulted me and smashed my computer before I got up the courage to call the police.  
Instead of her going to jail however, she made up a story that I threatened to strangle her in the middle of the night.  She works third shift on the other side of town from where I was staying, and I had no access to transportation even if I had a mind to do that.  She knew she was headed to jail if she didn't think of something fast.  She knows of my continence problems and that I'm not likely to fare well being incontinent and incarcerated.

After spending a day and a half with my paternal grandparents, I returned home to discover my computer was now being held basically hostage by my mother.  I immediately went to my room and gathered what possessions I could into two duffel bags, a backpack I use as my diaper bag, and the last box of my diapers and boosters.  I called my grandparents up to take me to the police department to file a police report.  After talking to a police officer, only to discover there was nothing illegal about her smashing my computer, I asked if there was anywhere I could go, the only option available to me was the homeless shelter.   I took it.

In January I began to notice some excessive trickling after urinating.  Sometime in February, I began losing the sensation that I needed to urinate and had enough accidents to warrant a trip to Walgreens to purchase male guards.  The whole pack lasted less than a week.  Out of money temporarily, I had to endure the wet pants until the next check from school came--I had been in college at the time.

Being familiar with incontinence management produxts after wetting the bed for well over a decade, I skipped right over the belted undergarments and protective underwear for the actual adult diapers, or to be PC "fitted briefs" buuuut since 1) this is a mobile phone running WebOS (not a PC) and 2) I don't like the term, that's the last time it'll be said on this blog, they're diapers and that's that.  The first brand I bought--Certainty--flat-out sucked, tapes would rip, and they weren't very absorbant at all.  After I got my job I was able to switch to Secure Personal Care's X-Plus.  Much better, I can go a full day most days without a diaper change with a Pampers Baby Dry size 6 as a booster pad, which saves loads of money--the diapers run $66 per case of 48.

My current urinary control is limited to feeling that I'm wetting but only intermittently.  I will sometimes feel my diaper warm and that is the only feeling that I am urinating.  If I am outside I'm lucky if I even feel the warmth.

 I'll try to post twice a day--no job and very little cleanup leaves me loads of dead time.  One--usually the morning post will be a daily update about what I did the day before, the second post in the afternoon, I'll cover something topical such as an interesting news story or dreams and aspirations for the future.  I'll also do a mini series of stories featuring Mischa in adventures to assauge our creativity, and to let him have some fun.